Welcome to Gaia! ::

Um... I heard it on the radio a week or so ago... Program was "American Top 40 with Ryan Seacrest." whee

Harry Potter? Where?! surprised

Woo! I'm such a scatterbrained Mod. Wrong thread, lol!

Ok, I'm going to type out my testimony, because I feel like I am convicted to do so right now, but I've skimmed some of the others, and it's awesome to see the Lord's work in other people, I will read them all, because some of them gave me goosebumps.

I am adopted, but I'll get to that later, it's sort of my confirming that there is a God in Heaven looking out for everyone, so I'll say, I was adopted into a Christian family, my mother believed that accepting Christ should be something someone does out of their own will, so I was saved at the age of 7, I truely believed Jesus Christ died on the Cross for my sins, and the rest of humanities sins, so I asked Him into my heart, but it didn't really sink in. I went to a Christian School, in Washington State, until High School. At the transition between Junior High, and High School, my parents got divorced and we moved down to Georgia, where I attended a public school, because my mother didn't have the money to put me into a private school.

During the interview process, I met the person who would become my best friend, at that time I didn't think that I would see him again, but I got on the bus for the first day of my freshman year, and there he was, he didn't live but 5 minutes walking distance from me. Well me and him started hanging out, and becoming really good friends, but at that point he wasn't a Christian, so I started to slip away from the faith, even though I still went to church, at the age of 15 I started smoking cigarettes, and marijuana, but then I moved to a different school district, so we didn't hang out as much anymore.

During the transition between my Junior year, and Senior year, I started hanging out with the "drugies," because I couldn't find anyone else who would accept me, well they rubbed off on me, and I started doing things like cocaine, and LSD. It was then, that I decided that I didn't need God anymore, and I wasn't going to follow him, I stopped going to church, and I started to get really bad into drugs. I graduated high school, by the grace of God, and I went on to college, I ended going to a military college with very strict rules, but I found the drugies there, and continued on my path of self destruction. One night after a school dance, I went back to my room to get my pot, and I was caught while transfering it into my pocket, the cops ended up being called and shortly after I was suspended from all Georgia colleges. I was heart broken, my mother bought me a house, and I lived there with my girlfriend at the time, but I had no desire to do anything anymore, so I sat around, and played video games all day. The girl that I thought I was in love with, ended up leaving me, and that just added to my feelings of worthlessness, so I got really bad on drugs, I ended up robbing people of things so I could support my habit, and living off of my mom, all the while getting myself into a deeper hole of self hate. I ended up becoming anorexic, and got really skinny.

This is where I begin to see God still working on me no matter what I was doing. at the age of 20, a person showed up on my doorstep that I had only met once before, he was all strung out on drugs, and I chose to invite him to live with me, because I was pretty strung out too, but it ended up, he wanted to work, and therefore I wanted to work too. So we found jobs together, since he had no transportation of his own, but there was always the thought of, "well if we could make more money, we could afford more drugs and still be able to pay the bills." At about that time, Divine Intervention, my mom, who had been so supportive of me no matter the circumstances, poured her heart out to me, and told me that I was killing her mentally, by what I was choosing to do to my self, and that I was following the path that I swore I didn't want to go down, my father's, and the reason my parents got divorced. I wish I could say that I dropped everything, and immediately started going back to chruch, but that would be a boldfaced lie, but I will tell you, everything that I did from that point on didn't have a good effect on me, and I finally found a great job, the same place that I'm working at now, a Christian company, and slowly my mindset started to change as we would have weekly prayer meetings, and I would hear the Word of God. I started giving up things, first it was alcohol, and LSD, then I gave up doing X(ecstasy), and then cocaine, and speed, but I still didn't go to church, so I was doomed to repeat the process, but now to the extremes that I was doing them, about a year and a half of being at the company, I had given up almost everything, and I was asked if I would like to become a manager. I took the psoition, but about 5 months after, they began doing random drug screens, I failed for marijuana, the same thing I got kicked out of college for, didn't learn from one mistake doomed to repeat it. Luckily, I was able to smooth talk my way out of being fired, but I lost my managerial position, because they had given me a month, and then they would test me agian, but I knew I wasn't going to pass so I was honest, and took one and passed one a week later. So here I am, 22 and lost 2 dreams to the same thing, so I quit, for 3 months, and then backslided, a year after the first, they gave another random drug screen, and I failed again, but this time I had gotten back into everything again, and I failed for speed as well as pot, but for some reason I was able to keep my job, and they were going to give me the same oportunity as the last time, and I became a manager again, after I passed the next one. March, of the following year, I went to a Starlight Christian Crusade, and something the speaker said pricked my heart, he was talking about commiting the same sin over and over again, so I decided to pray the prayer he spoke, and to recommit my life to Christ, I was baptised, and I felt like a new man, but I didn't follow through with my commitment, and I started smoking pot again.

Well about two and a half months ago, my company gave a company wide drug test, I had quit everything, but go figure, I failed again for marijuana, can you see a repeating pattern here, but this time I was fired. I sat around my house for about 3 weeks, and was doing some soul searching, and I had gotten on message boards, and met some really good friends, and I realised what I had lost because of pot, it was the only thing that I clung to, and it was also the only thing that had cost me everything, I lost my chance at completing college, and I lost my job, that I had held for 4 years, right after my 4 year mark. That's when I decided to quit, for myself, and for good. I still wasn't going to church regularly, but I had decided to actually go a few times. I put out a ton of applications, and 1 month after I got fired I decided I wanted to go back to my company, but after what I had done, they weren't going to hire me back. I was shot to pieces, so I kept putting out applicaitons, but never did I hear anything back, again I was back to feeling worthless, and I almost put an end to my life, but I put on a cd, that I had gotten from a couple people in a band who worked at my company, a Christian Band called Two Bare Feet, as I listened to it, I realised that I was broken, and that I couldn't do anything anymore by myself, and I prayed to God, that he would take my life, and show me what He wanted me to do, and where He wanted me to go, I went back to the church that I went to before, and joined, I started going every week, and going to Bible study. But I still couldn't find a job, but I ran into my old crew leader, and I told him of all the things that were going on in my life, and he told me that he would go up to bat for me, but I told him that I didn't want to come back, 2 weeks later, someone who had failed the test and came back, told me that I should at least try one more time to come back, that was God talking, so I went to my bosses house, and talked with him, and told him that I was a changed man, that I was going to church regularly, and that I had no desire to be the person I was before, or ever smoke pot, the disbelief that he had the first time, was gone, he could actually see that the Holy Spirit was changing me, so he gave me another chance, my last chance that I'm going to need, so I took the drug test and after waiting around for another week, I was hired back. I've been working there for 2 weeks now, and I finally had gotten some money extra, so I tithed for the first time, this week.

I praise the Lord, for extending his mercy to me so many times, now I don't even remember the person I was, and for all the people that the Lord put into my life over the last two months on message boards, who have supported me, and been so kind to me, without any of them and a lot of prayer from so many people, I wouldn't be here, and I wouldn't have the desires that I have now, for the Lord to live His life through me, and for me to serve Him without question.

Thank you for listening to my testimony, I will get into my confirmation that God exists, in the next post, and a supplimetal reason for what sparked the change.

This is my testimony...


I was born on a catholic family. I only have my mother because my parents are not married. My father's parents didn't like my mom. Since I was little, my mom taught me about Christ and the onther saint. We used to have wooden sculptures of saints at home. My mom used to pray at them. Then, when I was in grade 1, she sent me to a Christian school. I was still 5 then, so I didn't pay attention to what they are saying. I received Christ when I was in grade 3, but we are still going to a catholic church. Then, we had our retreat when I was in grade 5. There, we were taught about Christ more deeply, and I received Christ again. When I got home, I told my mom about the things that I learned. Then, there was one time that my mom got sick and she has to go to Davao (Philippines) because her doctor was there. When she got home, her friends helped her received Christ and since then, she payed more attention in reading the bible and I was joining her. And since then, we always go to the Christian church.



It does look like my mom's testimony...

amen to that biggrin !

I have been a Christian for a little more than a year now. I first met the person who led me to the lord at the beginning of my freshmen year, I immediantly started to hate Christiananity, because I didn't like her, and I didn't like her, because I could see this happiness shining through her, that I knew I didn't have. She kept trying to tell me about the lord, though, and I kept not listening to her. I started to really hate her, until one day it hit me... Hey, I could have that happiness that she has... I could be like that... I didn't want to give in to her, and let her know that I was jealous, or let her think that she won... And I was way too embarrassed to talk to her... So for months I went on living in this fear... Hoping that I was right and everyone else was wrong and that I wasn't going to die and go to hell. I was terrified... and I hated it. One day when she talked to me though, I just couldn't hold back anymore and on that day May 23 2004, I went to church with her and I got saved... and now I know that life has a different meaning to me... I love the Lord, I love being one of his children... I can't wait to see him, And I hope he can use me, the same way he used her.

Allaraina... your advatar looks like it should have wings... i shall donate when i have the money to donate....

These testemonies are amazing and it is so awesome to see God working in everything.

I need to put mine in here.... shortly... i've been meaning to type it up anyway.

The Lord is very powerful and i have had many moments when i experience the power of faith and love.

I have suffered from ill health all my life, chronic asthma and bronchitis and i was always at my lifes end many times. I basically lived my whole childhood life and teenage life in the hospital sometimes staying months at a time. Just when the doctors would tell me this would be the end after a couple of times my lungs collapsing and the infections just getting overwhelming the good Lord would place his healing hands on me and bring me back. During middle school i suffered through a big depression and began my descent on the dark path of anorexia and drugs. After a few years i defeated anorexia and came out victorious by my addiction to marijuana was still there. I was no longer depressed because things were moving in a positive direction in my life but i was still smoking. Lifes problems began to get to great for me and i began to have domestic problems with my parents. At the age of 19 i moved out and lived with my boyfriend and the depression and stress of growing up hit me and i fell deeper into drugs. I began smoking about 6 blunts a day. Me and my boyfriend would smoke all day to try to make things smooth for about a year. That was until one day he got a phone call from his old childhood friend matthias who became a pastor and invited us to a church function he was having. I found my path to the Lord once again and realized that my addiction was holding me down and straying me away from him. My now fiance and I made a pact to put an end to our addiction, go cold turkey and live righteous. And now it is 8 months later and we are positive people and strong believers and followers of the Lord. We get high on happiness and life now. I recently fell ill again and ended up getting complications and had to go into surgery. But i feel like i will bounce back stronger than ever. Now my fiance is joining the coast guard and we are getting married. Things are looking up after what i felt like were years of darkness. And I owe it all to God.