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Aurahkah and Ecara. There were the center of his thoughts and little would change that. And having a scant few moments to sit down with Aurah and talk without hiding away from everyone gave him exactly what he wanted. The kitchen was quiet for once, no one blasting in and out constantly and it was just her next to him, with Ecara sitting nearby seeming ready to go face first into her bowl of spaghetti.

"Absolutely." Saradin leaned against her and put an arm up as he watched Ecara closer. "Like father like daughter." But growing in his mind was really thinking of her as his own daughter by now, she was as close and friendly to her as her own father and knew that shed accept him. But she wasnt the focus right now, and after the last stretch of time he had to spend with Aurah... "So Aurah, what inspired... the other night?" Choosing cautious language was appropriate considering the younger listener.

"Just surprised by it." A gentle kiss in thanks for the night of his life. "Havent had enough time together in the last few weeks. And from the little time weve had spent, its seemed like theres something on your mind. Very tense, something that you arent sure you want to say maybe?" Serenity radiated from their time together, and it was this feeling that he wanted to absorb into himself, it would help later when peace was harder to find.

"I feel old." Not quite the answer she may have been looking for, but it was all he had. "Like Ive been around for much longer than I should have and time is finally starting to take me. And that maybe youre staying behind." That of course sounded very bleak, no matter the tone he used. "But you dont have to worry about things like that, not for a long time at least. I just want to get everything out and open so that we can show the little thing without the shadows."

"The answer to that is fairly simple. When you dont want it anymore." Her tapping fingers found his wrapping between them, holding his hand several sizes larger around hers, fingers moving in near unison with her tapping. In truth, he was worried too. Things that he knew were always his lot in life to do were now so far beyond him and he felt useless. She was the only thing that kept him from succumbing to that, and even that was getting harder to do when she had so much worry of her own. "Think youve got something you dont want anymore?"

"Wrong with me?" As if confused with the statement, Saradin stared with a look of innocence to her for clarification as to her meaning. But he already knew. Of course he hadnt been himself, he didnt know who he was really, and then there was the matter of the terrible fire burning inside of his soul. "Aurah," His shimmering blue eyes closed as the he leaned his face into the crook of her neck thinking of what else to say. "I can better be me when I know that you'll be okay no matter what." The facade or peace and calm really did wear on him in many ways, though he had no intention of letting it dissapear from him entirely until they would have a chance to talk about this. "When I see you afraid, it breaks my heart, and when youre afraid for me I hide the pain to keep you safe. I think youve been doing the same, both of us trying to cover up our fears to make the other worry less."

"Death," Saradin muttered into the air. "All we can do is work to prevent these things when the time comes. Because it happened once doesnt mean it will happen again. And worst of it is that worrying will only take away the joy we have without doing anything to change what may happen." Nuzzling against her neck for a moment he sat up again and looked over to Ecara. "Just take her example. Children always seem to know how to do things that adults cant figure out."