I don't know what to think anymore. I hate you, but I can't bring myself to leave you to stop caring about you. It tears me apart inside to hear what you have to say to me, to watch the looks you give and to never be good enough for you. I'm going to be a teacher you don't like that, i'm sorry i don't care. It's my life not yours! I can't live your dream life for you, so stop trying to make me! Why, why is everything I do never good enough for you. All I want is to hear your proud of me just once just one time I want to hear those words come from you mouth instead of his. And, I don't want to her them in a way in which i know you don't mean them. You told me once that you wanted me to open up to and confess my problems to you like you do me, but how can I when you don't listen. When what I have to say is stupid to you, is childish and you just brush it off as being that time of the month. You wonder why I talk to him all the time and not you well that's why. You never stop and listen to me, to my pain or anything esle. And, I'm sick of it! I'm tired of always crying over stuff that I can't change. I love you so much its hurts and with each condecenting word you say it cuts another nitch into my already scarred and bleeding heart. You can't break what's already broken but you can shatter the pieces that are left waiting to be put back. You have no idea how much it pains me to know I'll never be what you wanted me too be. Though I hate you for what you put me through, I'll never turn my back on you or leave you in the dark, like you've done to me. I'll be there that rock that keeps you from drowning. So know this mother, you have my love but not my respect........
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