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"I guess it was too much for him. My job is high stress not only for me but those that assist me. My father made a mistake and it resulted in his death and my stepmother's and sister's. At least I used to think it was a mistake...but now I seem to be doing the same actions as well..." Chase said looking up at the picture with look of determination and what seemed like a bit of pride. He had no shame ow for what his father did.

He looked at Kaoru and seemed to almost smile.
"Thank you, that means a lot to me." he said. "I guess I should start from the absolute beginning. For generations my family has worked creating machines and weapons of war. Even in times of peace there was still work creating weapons to ease the troubled minds of world leaders. World leaders say that our family has an amazing gift, I would call it a terrible curse. For a long time there was not much trouble. My grandfather never spoke up against any of the jobs he was given no matter who he was working for. I guess the first person that really started to realize what horrible things we were creating was my father. My father went through witnessing the horrors of the executioning devices of the concentration camps that my own grandfather designed.

Upon my grandfather's death my father was soon to inherit the business. My father had married my mother, a young japanese woman, a few years before, and I was soon born. Many frowned upon my father's choice for a wife but my father never cared of other's opinions when it came to love. My mother sadly died soon after giving birth to me. She had a heart condition that she had developed over the years, much like what I have and was not able to recover from labor. The servants say that my father was distraught with grief and didn't leave his room for several days.

Years passed and a new servant named Emily arrived. She was very beautiful with bright red hair. When she came she was several months pregnant. Emily's husband had died just a month ago and she came to get a new start to her life. My father didn't notice her very much, but she noticed him. She started to spend a lot of time with him and declared it her main job to make sure I was being taken care of. She was one of the kindest ladies I'v ever met. I never really knew my mother, but I had always hoped that she was like Emily. Emily and my father began to become very close and my father began to stray away from his work. My father soon proposed to her, ironically on the very day that she went into labor with Katherine. There was such a large hussle around and things started to become so perfect. Dad married Emily and things were great.

Unfortunately dad strayed too much from his work and one day there was an assasination attempt. A few months after I turned thirteen, Emily was almost assinated, but she escaped the attack with only minor injuries and a note from the attacker. It threatened to exterminate the entire family if my father did not begin to work. My father was shaken badly and worked for weeks straight. It kept up like that for years, my father barely ever leaving his room. Emily was worried, but not even she could get him to take breaks. It all stopped with one assignment. My dad was told to create a device that could be used to torture and slaughter thousands. My father refused. That night the house was seized..." he suddenly stopped. His eyes took on a glaze as he suddenly had a flash back of the night. He clutched his forehead covering his eyes in pain.

((Lol! I was wondering where you went.))

Chase let go shaking his head some as he regained his composure.
"I'm fine..." he said looking at the ground for a while. He looked at him.
"You don't have to make a decision immediatly."

"Alright." Chase said nodding. He looked at him a moment and then turned to look at the painting.
".......what do you think of the painting?" he asked randomly.

((No prob, my life has been really stressful as well.))

Chase slowly wrapped his arms around Kaoru feeling a warmth inside of him that he hadn't felt for a long time. He felt ao much stronger when Kaoru was with him. It just felt right. He listened to the gentle drumming of Kaoru's purr.

"When my hands can once again create instead of destroy...that's when we can run." he said quietly to Koaru.

((Wow...this has to be the worst case of writers block I've ever had..I have no idea what to write... ))