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 Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 8:22 pm
Garou_Jinketsu Eco and Eddily. Thank you guys for the support. I really wish I had grown to become better friends with you two. But, I just can't stand being alone again. Without Rin I don't see a future. I have no will and no reason. The only thing I have left in the world that is even the slightest bit good rests comfortably inside the chamber of a .45 calibur. All I needed was someone to love, and someone to love me back. That was all I ever had, and now that's gone too. So, I'm finished. I thought I'd be with Spotty all my life too, but look where we are now. You're not done. Don't kill yourself or anything, nobody needs that weight on their shoulders.
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 8:26 pm
Crenn Leyla Giselle Crenn wahmbulance DEPRESSION WARNING wahmbulance Yep, it hits me time after time again. The reason is fairly pathetic, but it normally is. This time it's my family (yet again) constantly changing their minds. They say one thing one month, then say something completely different the next month. I'm still working on my new Resume, but I have a feeling my dad won't help me because he knows that once I can support myself, I'm moving out. But anyway, my depression today is caused by my youngest elder sister. She said about a month or 2 ago I could benchmark her computer when she got it (run programs to see how good it is), and today she says I can't because "we already know how good it is". This is constantly irriatating me, because it happens every single month. Looking at what you are depressed about and comparing it to Garou's pain, you seem pathetic. You're depressed over something as stupid as a computer while someone else is obviously suffering worse, and what appears to be the brink of suicidal. You need to learn what real depression and what real pain is. If you get depressed over something this small, I can't see how you could handle having your heart ripped out and broken by someone you love. [/rant] Tolera, I am pathetic for what I get depressed over. I know that. As for real depression, I've had a lot worse than this, except I don't want to remember that, so I won't say anything about it. Help Garou as much as you can, I've already been comforted by friends, so I feel better now. He needs a lot of comforting right now. if you knew what real pain was about, then you wouldn't make the insignificant posts you make. It's really pitiful of you to be depressed cause you can't test a comp
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 8:26 pm
Leyla Giselle Crenn wahmbulance DEPRESSION WARNING wahmbulance Yep, it hits me time after time again. The reason is fairly pathetic, but it normally is. This time it's my family (yet again) constantly changing their minds. They say one thing one month, then say something completely different the next month. I'm still working on my new Resume, but I have a feeling my dad won't help me because he knows that once I can support myself, I'm moving out. But anyway, my depression today is caused by my youngest elder sister. She said about a month or 2 ago I could benchmark her computer when she got it (run programs to see how good it is), and today she says I can't because "we already know how good it is". This is constantly irriatating me, because it happens every single month. Looking at what you are depressed about and comparing it to Garou's pain, you seem pathetic. You're depressed over something as stupid as a computer while someone else is obviously suffering worse, and what appears to be the brink of suicidal. You need to learn what real depression and what real pain is. If you get depressed over something this small, I can't see how you could handle having your heart ripped out and broken by someone you love. [/rant] That's a little harsh, love. This thread isn't about comparing who's got it worse, it's about griping in general, and Crenn has every bit as much of a right to complaining about his computers and his sisters as Garou and Rin have to complain about their unfortunate split-up. Rin and Garou, I know it's tough for both of you, and either one of you is welcome to PM me if they feel the need to talk, gripe, whine about anything. One thing I DO discourage is suicidal tendancy, so Garou, please don't. We all love you, and it depresses us when one of our own talks that way. Crenn is right, you DO have a future, even if it's not with Rin, that doesn't mean it doesn't exist. wink Crenn...sucks that you're family's so indecisive. Just bear in mind that one day, very soon, you will be free. Just hold on to that though. 3nodding
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 8:29 pm
Manda_Tifa That's a little harsh, love. This thread isn't about comparing who's got it worse, it's about griping in general, and Crenn has every bit as much of a right to complaining about his computers and his sisters as Garou and Rin have to complain about their unfortunate split-up. Rin and Garou, I know it's tough for both of you, and either one of you is welcome to PM me if they feel the need to talk, gripe, whine about anything. One thing I DO discourage is suicidal tendancy, so Garou, please don't. We all love you, and it depresses us when one of our own talks that way. Crenn is right, you DO have a future, even if it's not with Rin, that doesn't mean it doesn't exist. wink Crenn...sucks that you're family's so indecisive. Just bear in mind that one day, very soon, you will be free. Just hold on to that though. 3nodding It isn't the complaining that annoyed me. It's the fact that he says he's depressed over something so stupid.
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 8:31 pm
Leyla Giselle Manda_Tifa That's a little harsh, love. This thread isn't about comparing who's got it worse, it's about griping in general, and Crenn has every bit as much of a right to complaining about his computers and his sisters as Garou and Rin have to complain about their unfortunate split-up. Rin and Garou, I know it's tough for both of you, and either one of you is welcome to PM me if they feel the need to talk, gripe, whine about anything. One thing I DO discourage is suicidal tendancy, so Garou, please don't. We all love you, and it depresses us when one of our own talks that way. Crenn is right, you DO have a future, even if it's not with Rin, that doesn't mean it doesn't exist. wink Crenn...sucks that you're family's so indecisive. Just bear in mind that one day, very soon, you will be free. Just hold on to that though. 3nodding It isn't the complaining that annoyed me. It's the fact that he says he's depressed over something so stupid. Leave him alone, please. There is no such thing as an insignificant post in the Sallies. You're perfectly welcome to just ignore it if it bothers you that much. And to be perfectly honest, I think the fact that you're bitching about his bitching is just as "silly" as his reason for being unhappy.
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 8:35 pm
Manda_Tifa Leyla Giselle Manda_Tifa That's a little harsh, love. This thread isn't about comparing who's got it worse, it's about griping in general, and Crenn has every bit as much of a right to complaining about his computers and his sisters as Garou and Rin have to complain about their unfortunate split-up. Rin and Garou, I know it's tough for both of you, and either one of you is welcome to PM me if they feel the need to talk, gripe, whine about anything. One thing I DO discourage is suicidal tendancy, so Garou, please don't. We all love you, and it depresses us when one of our own talks that way. Crenn is right, you DO have a future, even if it's not with Rin, that doesn't mean it doesn't exist. wink Crenn...sucks that you're family's so indecisive. Just bear in mind that one day, very soon, you will be free. Just hold on to that though. 3nodding It isn't the complaining that annoyed me. It's the fact that he says he's depressed over something so stupid. Leave him alone, please. There is no such thing as an insignificant post in the Sallies. You're perfectly welcome to just ignore it if it bothers you that much. And to be perfectly honest, I think the fact that you're bitching about his bitching is just as "silly" as his reason for being unhappy. And I'm just expressing my personal opinion on how he gripes like a child that has to have his way.
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 8:37 pm
Thank you everyone for your support. It means a lot to know that so many people care.
I need to go to bed, I can't think or anything.
Garou. Please. You promised me.
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 8:39 pm
Leyla Giselle Manda_Tifa Leyla Giselle Manda_Tifa That's a little harsh, love. This thread isn't about comparing who's got it worse, it's about griping in general, and Crenn has every bit as much of a right to complaining about his computers and his sisters as Garou and Rin have to complain about their unfortunate split-up. Rin and Garou, I know it's tough for both of you, and either one of you is welcome to PM me if they feel the need to talk, gripe, whine about anything. One thing I DO discourage is suicidal tendancy, so Garou, please don't. We all love you, and it depresses us when one of our own talks that way. Crenn is right, you DO have a future, even if it's not with Rin, that doesn't mean it doesn't exist. wink Crenn...sucks that you're family's so indecisive. Just bear in mind that one day, very soon, you will be free. Just hold on to that though. 3nodding It isn't the complaining that annoyed me. It's the fact that he says he's depressed over something so stupid. Leave him alone, please. There is no such thing as an insignificant post in the Sallies. You're perfectly welcome to just ignore it if it bothers you that much. And to be perfectly honest, I think the fact that you're bitching about his bitching is just as "silly" as his reason for being unhappy. And I'm just expressing my personal opinion on how he gripes like a child that has to have his way. Very well. But at least Crenn wasn't trying to offend anyone in the guild... However, this is not helping my headache, and I'm going to the sensible thing and sign off and go to bed. Try and keep the peace in tact, will you all? sweatdrop
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 8:45 pm
Manda_Tifa Leyla Giselle Manda_Tifa Leyla Giselle Manda_Tifa That's a little harsh, love. This thread isn't about comparing who's got it worse, it's about griping in general, and Crenn has every bit as much of a right to complaining about his computers and his sisters as Garou and Rin have to complain about their unfortunate split-up. Rin and Garou, I know it's tough for both of you, and either one of you is welcome to PM me if they feel the need to talk, gripe, whine about anything. One thing I DO discourage is suicidal tendancy, so Garou, please don't. We all love you, and it depresses us when one of our own talks that way. Crenn is right, you DO have a future, even if it's not with Rin, that doesn't mean it doesn't exist. wink Crenn...sucks that you're family's so indecisive. Just bear in mind that one day, very soon, you will be free. Just hold on to that though. 3nodding It isn't the complaining that annoyed me. It's the fact that he says he's depressed over something so stupid. Leave him alone, please. There is no such thing as an insignificant post in the Sallies. You're perfectly welcome to just ignore it if it bothers you that much. And to be perfectly honest, I think the fact that you're bitching about his bitching is just as "silly" as his reason for being unhappy. And I'm just expressing my personal opinion on how he gripes like a child that has to have his way. Very well. But at least Crenn wasn't trying to offend anyone in the guild... However, this is not helping my headache, and I'm going to the sensible thing and sign off and go to bed. Try and keep the peace in tact, will you all? sweatdrop I'm pretty much done now.
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 8:53 pm
Leyla Giselle Manda_Tifa Leyla Giselle Manda_Tifa Leyla Giselle Manda_Tifa That's a little harsh, love. This thread isn't about comparing who's got it worse, it's about griping in general, and Crenn has every bit as much of a right to complaining about his computers and his sisters as Garou and Rin have to complain about their unfortunate split-up. Rin and Garou, I know it's tough for both of you, and either one of you is welcome to PM me if they feel the need to talk, gripe, whine about anything. One thing I DO discourage is suicidal tendancy, so Garou, please don't. We all love you, and it depresses us when one of our own talks that way. Crenn is right, you DO have a future, even if it's not with Rin, that doesn't mean it doesn't exist. wink Crenn...sucks that you're family's so indecisive. Just bear in mind that one day, very soon, you will be free. Just hold on to that though. 3nodding It isn't the complaining that annoyed me. It's the fact that he says he's depressed over something so stupid. Leave him alone, please. There is no such thing as an insignificant post in the Sallies. You're perfectly welcome to just ignore it if it bothers you that much. And to be perfectly honest, I think the fact that you're bitching about his bitching is just as "silly" as his reason for being unhappy. And I'm just expressing my personal opinion on how he gripes like a child that has to have his way. Very well. But at least Crenn wasn't trying to offend anyone in the guild... However, this is not helping my headache, and I'm going to the sensible thing and sign off and go to bed. Try and keep the peace in tact, will you all? sweatdrop I'm pretty much done now. Wow, the angst is so thick here you could eat it for dinner. O.O Crenn, I know family can bug you to your last nerve, but it can't be helped at the moment. I'm sorry, but that's all I can say...... As for Garou: I'm shocked at you for even suggesting that you'd end your own life! I too lost someone very important to me......I miss him all the time, but I know that we broke up because things were getting bad, and we wanted each other to be happier. So, it's a mixed blessing. Don't be so hard on yourself.
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 9:01 pm
Leyla Giselle- This is an official warning. That kind of behavior will not be tollerated in the Sallies thread. Crenn has as much right to post about his problems as anyone elses. You can disagree, but you don't need to bring it up hear. Unless you are truelly saying something helpful, or trying to comfort someone than it doesn't belong here. This is a place to vent, even about the little things without fear of people insulting or attacking back.
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 9:04 pm
Garou_Jinketsu Eco and Eddily. Thank you guys for the support. I really wish I had grown to become better friends with you two. But, I just can't stand being alone again. Without Rin I don't see a future. I have no will and no reason. The only thing I have left in the world that is even the slightest bit good rests comfortably inside the chamber of a .45 calibur. All I needed was someone to love, and someone to love me back. That was all I ever had, and now that's gone too. So, I'm finished. Garou please don't think like that. If you seriously feel that is your only option than I ask you at least attempt seeing some professional help about it. If nothing more, think how Rin would feel knowing you killed yourself because of her. Would you really want her to have that hanging over her head the rest of her life?
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 9:07 pm
Tolera, if you want to say something about my behaviour, go for it, but say it via a PM or IM. You know how to contact me.
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 9:09 pm
Okay, so, a few people know I'm in a war with my "Exgirlfriend". Maybe I should just come clean and get it all off my chest, since I really don't care how it pathetic it makes me look.
My "ex" was molested as a kid, and that only stopped a MONTH before I met her. I didn't know about it, yanno? We were kids. So, anyways, this was eight years ago, I was just like.. eleven, she was what.. twelve, thirteen? Anyways, needless to say, during my first sleepover there, she passed her cycle on to me.
Later, she blamed it all on me and I was confused and didn't get it, 'cause I really didn't understand lesbian sex at all. So, it happened a lot growing up and I just kind of got used to it. In fact, I adored her. She showed me a lot of attention, was older than me, and was always defending me. I guess she made me feel good when I thought I was a piece of s**t. She's the reason, more or less, I admitted to being bisexual.
Anyways, so years later, in highschool, her dad loses his house. I demand and wheedle and fight until her and her sister are allowed to live with us till he gets a new place for 'em. So she moves in, and there's not enough room for her, her sister, my two sisters and me. So my two sisters bunk up, her sister gets my old room, and me and her bunk up in my mom's room.
Of course, the inevitable happens. But I'm older, I know better. So I delude myself a bit. When people joke about me not being able to be bi because I've never had sex with a girl, I replied, "yeah, yeah I have!" And so the whole story of me dating Chan happened, so I'd feel better about it. Her family's ******** up, I know, and it really ******** me up for a while to. I mean, she wasn't the first molestor in my life, but she happened to me more than once versus the others.
And, somewhere in there, it became okay to me because I somehow started loving her. I mean, I was addicted to her, absolutely addicted. And now.. We're fighting because she's a slut and I can't stand it. I mean, now that I'm over her, and watching her... I realize how self destructive she is and how much she likes being a victim.
I mean, okay, she's leading me on and constantly asking me out.. But she's engaged to be married to one guy, dating a married woman and then getting mad when I tell her that I don't like her telling me about her escapades.
On top of that, anyone in her life that has ever gravely hurt her.. she's let back into and is letting them hurt her again. Wow. And I was stupid for deluding myself?
Anyways. I just had to get it all off my chest for once. I ain't told anyone about this s**t, really, and so. I don't care about it anymore. It's past. But old wounds can't heal till ya air 'em. I just did.
It's over.
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Posted: Sat Jul 15, 2006 9:14 pm
Sheol Kitten Okay, so, a few people know I'm in a war with my "Exgirlfriend". Maybe I should just come clean and get it all off my chest, since I really don't care how it pathetic it makes me look.
My "ex" was molested as a kid, and that only stopped a MONTH before I met her. I didn't know about it, yanno? We were kids. So, anyways, this was eight years ago, I was just like.. eleven, she was what.. twelve, thirteen? Anyways, needless to say, during my first sleepover there, she passed her cycle on to me.
Later, she blamed it all on me and I was confused and didn't get it, 'cause I really didn't understand lesbian sex at all. So, it happened a lot growing up and I just kind of got used to it. In fact, I adored her. She showed me a lot of attention, was older than me, and was always defending me. I guess she made me feel good when I thought I was a piece of s**t. She's the reason, more or less, I admitted to being bisexual.
Anyways, so years later, in highschool, her dad loses his house. I demand and wheedle and fight until her and her sister are allowed to live with us till he gets a new place for 'em. So she moves in, and there's not enough room for her, her sister, my two sisters and me. So my two sisters bunk up, her sister gets my old room, and me and her bunk up in my mom's room.
Of course, the inevitable happens. But I'm older, I know better. So I delude myself a bit. When people joke about me not being able to be bi because I've never had sex with a girl, I replied, "yeah, yeah I have!" And so the whole story of me dating Chan happened, so I'd feel better about it. Her family's ******** up, I know, and it really ******** me up for a while to. I mean, she wasn't the first molestor in my life, but she happened to me more than once versus the others.
And, somewhere in there, it became okay to me because I somehow started loving her. I mean, I was addicted to her, absolutely addicted. And now.. We're fighting because she's a slut and I can't stand it. I mean, now that I'm over her, and watching her... I realize how self destructive she is and how much she likes being a victim.
I mean, okay, she's leading me on and constantly asking me out.. But she's engaged to be married to one guy, dating a married woman and then getting mad when I tell her that I don't like her telling me about her escapades.
On top of that, anyone in her life that has ever gravely hurt her.. she's let back into and is letting them hurt her again. Wow. And I was stupid for deluding myself?
Anyways. I just had to get it all off my chest for once. I ain't told anyone about this s**t, really, and so. I don't care about it anymore. It's past. But old wounds can't heal till ya air 'em. I just did.
It's over. Oh Sheol, you know how I feel on this...I'm so sorry..... And if it's any consolation, I hate her guts for what she's done to you. She is lower than scum, she is a WASTE PRODUCT of scum. Those sort of people should not be admired whatsoever.....but I understand.... Again, I'm so sorry......
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