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 Posted: Thu Dec 01, 2005 9:16 am
Silvermoonyoukai Bleh.
Went to Barnes & Noble and got Full Moon O Sagashite vol. 4. I'm excited to read it. I absolutely love that series.
Now I'm tired. u_u I downloaded the anime :3, it makes me happy. xd I just realized I'm not mentioned in Maron's guild message as a moderator... I really am a lazy bum and I feel terrible that I barely do anything here. >< To be honest I'm just so confused by the subforums and I'm just so not attracted here as much as I used to be. To be honest some of the members bug me and I don't feel as close to you guys as I used to. I guess I'm just so involved in college life and social life and boyfriend life and in my other guild that I've kinda left this all by the wayside- and for that I'm really really sorry. It's just, for the first time in a long time I've really happy and very content with my life, things have just been going well lately, and then I remember when I use to be on the phone with Maki and Tat for hours into the night, but all that slipped away because I became a bit of an introvert and thought I wasn't good enough. But I do miss it, and I know it'll never be that way again- and I don't want it to be because Maron, Maki, and Tat have become the strong trio and you guys love each other so much. So yeah, there's my little rant.... <3
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Posted: Thu Dec 01, 2005 12:39 pm
Looking around for Off*Beat...it's a new shonen-ai that's supposed to be FAKE-like. 3nodding Other than that....trying to get on GAIA more. Annnnddd...since NO ONE (admins/mods) is going to help me...I'm saving up for my sex change! xd My Christmas wishlist? 7k for a sex change. xd
*little boy sits on Santa's lap* "I haven't told my mommy yet, but I want a sex change for Christmas! biggrin "
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Posted: Thu Dec 01, 2005 2:54 pm
lol i wonder if i could pay my little brother to go sit on santa's lap and say he wants a sex change for christmas XD that would be so funny.
I have a job! er... kinda ^_^ $10 an hour!!!!!!!!!!! and all i have to do is play with some kids! talk about easy!!!and it'll only be like twice a week. so i'm like "w00t!" i wont be broke anymore I'm so happy. a work from like 6pm-9pm
My friends and i almost got a guy arrested today ^_^ he's our mortal enemy and weas harrassing out Jonathan and we're protective of him. twas much fun. Much fun indeed
hmmmmm sate...sate.... oh oo i watched an awsome Shonen Ai yesterday that my friend let me borrow. Its called Sukisho.
alright i gotta go to work.
~Kanna~
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Posted: Thu Dec 01, 2005 7:13 pm
carcer I just realized I'm not mentioned in Maron's guild message as a moderator... I really am a lazy bum and I feel terrible that I barely do anything here. >< I'm sorry I made you feel that. .___. The thing is, I made you a moderator when there wasn't anything to do. The only reason you weren't in the message was because you were the one moderator that I put in position when the guild died. XD; I'm really sorry. I don't know what to say about anything else, but I mean, you're in college and stuff. And Maki and Ta-kun are really happy about your life seems to be turning out. I mean, just reading your LJ entries, you seem so much happier. None of us have really been great to this guild lately. Some of the members suck. I really only like the oldbies.
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LouCIte0mUh--Tanx4zTuFz Captain
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Posted: Thu Dec 01, 2005 8:23 pm
... As we explode. carcer I just realized I'm not mentioned in Maron's guild message as a moderator... I really am a lazy bum and I feel terrible that I barely do anything here. >< I'm sorry I made you feel that. .___. The thing is, I made you a moderator when there wasn't anything to do. The only reason you weren't in the message was because you were the one moderator that I put in position when the guild died. XD; I'm really sorry. I don't know what to say about anything else, but I mean, you're in college and stuff. And Maki and Ta-kun are really happy about your life seems to be turning out. I mean, just reading your LJ entries, you seem so much happier. None of us have really been great to this guild lately. Some of the members suck. I really only like the oldbies. No no no, this is all my doing... I'm just so unmotivated, which makes me sad sad . I just miss talking to you guys all the time and feeling like part of that group. But I dunno, maybe I grew out of it or you guys did or... something. Not very eloquent tonight.
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Posted: Fri Dec 02, 2005 9:15 am
._. I really wish you didn't have to feel this way, carcer. I admit, we're not as close as we used to be and it makes me really sad when I think about it. But regardless of how much time we spend online or on the phone together, I know you know that we all still love you very much. You're a very good and important friend to me. You always will be. Even if we grow apart as time goes by, nothing will stop me from feeling the way I do about you.
God knows you've been a blessing to me, carcer. You're so caring and loving and you do an amazing job of making people feel better about themselves. You've done it for me countless times.
So yeah... even though we're not as close anymore, I still care about you a lot and I'm just really happy that things in your life are going so well. I only wish the best for you and everyone you love. <333!!!
In local news for Union, NJ...
Creepiest thing, man. ._. My mom was watching the news two days ago. There's a diner around here called the Huck Finn Diner. It's by our high school and only a few blocks away from my own house. I've even eaten there. Well, there was a car parked out there in front of the diner for five straight weeks. The owner became suspicious that no one was coming to pick it up, so they called the police. They investigated and found something I never thought would happen in my own home town. =/
They found the five week old dead body of a mob member who was supposed to testify at a trial in October. He was last seen on October 14th and never showed up to the trial to testify against the mafia. Apparently, they got to him first. I can't remember his name, but this just scares the ******** outta me. Just imagine something like that. A place I pass practically every single day, and there's been a dead man sitting there, rotting, every time I walk or drive by.
Sorry for those details. x_x But those are just the thoughts that run through my mind when I think about this. And everyone is constantly talking about it, so it's not easy to just put in the back of my mind. Needless to say when I heard about it I called up Maron in a nervous wreck. ._.;; It's such a stupid thing to be scared of, but it makes me not want to go outside anymore. You just never know what might happen. Pfft. And after all my life here, 16 years, I've told my mom and everyone else that it was totally safe here; no one even knew this town existed. Maybe that's what's so dangerous about it. =/
Long post. Sorry...
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Posted: Fri Dec 02, 2005 9:28 am
Thank you Maki. I suppose it's just the course of life really- it's taking us all in so many directions but we always know everyone who we left behind will still always be there for us. I grew apart from my best friend after high school ended, but we still talk and we know if we ever need each other that we'll be here. It's the same way with you guys- because I know you'll listen and give me advice a thousand best friends couldn't, because you all are something deeper than that. I'm not sure how to explain it, but it's like a bond that can't be broken, even if we somehow (maybe in a drunken stupor) try. I know you guys love me and I hope you all know how much I love you guys, how much all of you have meant to me and helped me and for once find a group I could mesh with and not feel so out of place. So no, it's not the same, but change isn't bad- it's just different. smile
Oy, that is really scary ><. The mafia is a terrible thing, heh, I know, I'm a mafia family. My grandfather ran it before he died in '96 and it was to be handed down to my father who is the eldest of the family, but he turned it down and got rid of it. I never really noticed how intricate a Sicilian family works, but after looking over my own for numerous years and ours being acquainted with other families; it's kind of scary. You screw up and everyone turns against you. It just recently happened with my Aunt Judy because shed hired my Uncle Michael and Tony to paint her house and refused to pay them their due penny- so now nobody talks to her and she's been alienated. It's really scary and it only makes me wonder what he did. Can't believe nobody even bothered to look in though, eek.
But in happy news- IT'S SNOWING!
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Posted: Fri Dec 02, 2005 2:22 pm
Gah, I wasn't online, but playing Final Fantasy last night... but Carcer. I love you, and I miss talking to you myself. I would even say, "Hey, lets call Carcer! :3 I miss talking to her!" But man, Carce. You're having a good time right now. Life's been good for you, and you seem so much happier lately, it makes me feel good. I'm so happy for you, that you have a bunch of new friends at college, and that you're busy with alot of things.
Er.. I suck at typing today. So many short sentences and all...
But what I'm trying to say is we don't mind if you're not in the guild 24/7. We don't mind your busy. We don't mind because as long as your happy, that makes us happy. I love being a friend to you, and I love having you as a friend in return.
And I need to scan you a bunch of art I drew for you last month. x.x
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Posted: Fri Dec 02, 2005 2:58 pm
I get to meet my best friend's dad ^_^ I think its her dad dad. I'm just glad i get to see her. She's like my other half. We're like sisters.
I just got a charlie horse in my leg >.> i went to sit down and BOOM! there it was
I was just talking to my friend who moved to sicily and she said its like mafia central and i said
it would be fuinny if two mafias ran into each other
One mafia don- "WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE!? THIS IS MY TURF!"
Other mafia Don - "NO THIS IS MY TURF!"
*machine guns go off*
bystander - "Oh so it was his turf"
twas funny
oh and last night a little girl peed on my lap >.> but she didnt get any on my thankfully
I'm gonna go watch Code Lyoko and then take a bath so sayounara!
~Kanna~
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Posted: Fri Dec 02, 2005 4:07 pm
Gah, Maki, that is super scary D: !!!
Carcer, when ever I'm on line, totally IM me if you wanna talk to someone!
So...like...I totally sliced under my ankle/above my heel wed. with a peice of glass that fell on my bed after my sis broke her candle ._. '. Hurts like a mother when there's preasure against it x_X' ...
I missed a whole week of skool, cause of sickness, pain from my freaking cut, and some sort of panick attacks ((but my mother doesn't know about that last part ._. )).
I went to the mall last week, and while we were shopping for my sis, I looked at my mom and went "...you know...I don't REALLY need all that candy in my stocking...specially cause I can;t have chocolate any more... you could replace the sweetness with something grand...like hats (: ." after I had her buy me about 3 new ones xD!
I've been neglecting my computer D:! Damn you SIMS...DAMN YOOOOU!
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Posted: Sat Dec 03, 2005 11:16 am
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Posted: Sat Dec 03, 2005 10:46 pm
Waaaiii!!! crying I posted after carcer and didn't even realize what she said in her post!! I'm sorry carcer!!! You know I love you more than I could say! And I've been off too... I know people go through time where they "get bored" with their usual but it scares me that I did. I really wish I could be around you guys but s**t's going everywhere and I rarely get on. But no matter what, you all know I love you. Or at least, I hope you do.
Other news; now going for liscense Dec 10, 11am. x_x;;
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Posted: Sun Dec 04, 2005 11:27 am
Maki failed her road test! =D
And then I baked cookies with my mom, so it's ok.
And I dyed my hair, too. I'm sorry, I couldn't hold back anymore! gonk And my mom kept pushing it on me 'cause she knew I wanted to! ;o; ... Oh well. It looks purdy! =O
It also snowed. I hate that. I don't like the snow. Sure, it's pretty to look at, but it's not all that pretty when you have to trudge and drive through it and shovel it. x_x Winter sucks, man. Go away, stupid snow!!! gonk
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Posted: Sun Dec 04, 2005 12:22 pm
Good Luck Pree! It'll give you mighty freedom! I wanna see you guys again! ;o;
Maki - My moms trying to make me shovel. I'll break my arms off if I even try. >> But my parents are retarded and ******** lazy as hell.
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Posted: Sun Dec 04, 2005 3:15 pm
I'm going to be gone for awhile, I don't know how long and will not estimate in case I do not keep my promise. I just think it's time and it's something I need to do. This is not because of one event or another but just a build up of events both on here and in real life- which were both going amazingly well until one bombshell fell after another and added to all this mess. I don't know how to really explain it, but I suppose, if I had to guess, it's a mixture of just being hurt, emotional, and stressed. Finals are coming up, this is my last week of classes and it's no lie what TV and movies say about finals week; it's nerve wracking and the most stressful period of the college experience, at least so far. I also must admit I have been taking very poor care of myself health wise, the details I will not reveal in fear of any ill-concieved thought against me. I suppose all and all, I'm just very sad, and I do not want to be a further hinderance to you all who I love so much, no matter what you may think of me or hold against me, or not hold against me.
If you do so desire to talk to me, you are free to IM me at Kemmi400, email me at spazzkemmi@yahoo.com, or call me. I am on AIM nearly 24/7 and check my yahoo everyday, if you want my number simply ask.
I love you guys, I just need some time to think.
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