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 Posted: Sat Jun 04, 2011 3:32 pm
Natalie E. Spencer I’ll never fail again...  BrotherSpencer’s heart threatened to pound itself out of her chest, like a hammer. Tell him. Tell him it all. But her brain said otherwise, threatening to jump down and out through her mouth. It tried to reason with her, that he would never understand. That he would just judge her, like the rest of them. There was a reason she always kept it hidden, the bottles all carefully disposed with no labels. Then they were hidden in the mint tins, even though some really were mints to fool nosy people. She just hadn’t had time to get the small pills out of the bottle yet. “Nothing.” She said, hoping she sounded better than how she heard herself. She heard her voice as a bit sharp, a bit nervous. A bit of everything except what Spencer wanted to sound like. She held out her hand, reaching for the bottle. “Just give it here, Marcus.” She pleaded. “Don’t you want to go do something fun instead to talking about stupid crap like this?” She tried to persuade him.
She was so scared that he wouldn’t drop it, that he would push it. What could she say? Could she fool him into thinking they were something else? Something entirely innocent. But then, why would they be in her bed? But they weren’t hidden, just conveniently placed, right? As long as no mint tins were opened… She could worm out of this. Probably.
...I’ll keep you out of danger
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Posted: Sat Jun 04, 2011 3:45 pm
Marcus D. Samuel -Silence-Different-Musician The darkness closes in on me, I surrender to it's sweet voice calling out to me, and let it take over me.  On this bed I lay, losing everything
I can see my life passing me by SilenceFor a minute, he stood there and watched Spencer. Surely this wasn't something she wanted to be found that was clear. Which made him more curious, along with worried. What was so bad that she wouldn't say? That she couldn't tell him? Or anyone else for that matter. "No. I don't think I will." he said holding the pills just out of her reach. He might not of been the tallest boy around but he was glad that he was still taller then most of the girls he hung around. "Come on, what is it Spence? You can tell me." he told her, he was beginning to become more concerned then curious. "The fast your tell me, the faster we go and ride a mattress down the stairs." he added trying to get her to spill it. Was it all too much or just not enough
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare There's no where to hide, in the dark. There was a girl I knew once, she told me I was blessed with a great gift. I laughed, because I think I was blessed with a curse.
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Posted: Sat Jun 04, 2011 3:52 pm
Natalie E. Spencer I’ll never fail again... Brother“Just give it!” She said loudly. The fury guarded the fear in her mind and in her voice. Which she was definitely glad about. “You just can’t leave anything alone, can you Marcus?” He asked, shaking her head. She let her hand drop, realizing fully well that she wouldn’t be able to reach them. “You just have to stick your nose into everything. Even if it’s none of your damn business!” Spencer’s jaw clenched ever so slightly, but then eased off. “You just can’t do that.” She said quietly. She sounded suddenly broken.
But then her anger came up, shielding her again. “Whatever. I don’t know why I wanted to do anything with you, anyhow.” She said sharply. “I don’t know what I was thinking. Thinking you would be the one I wanted to spend time with. Yeah, right.” Personal attacks. Spencer didn’t really want to use them at Marcus. She rather liked him, more than she would care to admit sometimes. But hopefully it would get him off of the topic of her and the bottle in his hands. That’s all she could hope for, now. Besides, Marcus wouldn’t be there forever. Her pills would. And so it would be alright to hurt him, so long as she got her bottle back. That was her brain’s reasoning, anyhow. Her heart sung a different tune. But she wouldn’t listen to it. that always brought trouble.
...I’ll keep you out of danger
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Posted: Sat Jun 04, 2011 3:59 pm
Rain 𝔑𝔬𝔞𝔥
Guitars 𝔄.
tuesdays 𝔗𝔥𝔬𝔪𝔞𝔰 ◦♫ ♪ ◦♫ ♪ ◦♫ ♪ ♂ ♪ ♫◦ ♪ ♫◦ ♪ ♫◦ SleepingThe blonde nodded slightly, when Selcia said he would check and simply followed the taller as he slipped on his jacket and returning the monstrous headphones to their near perminant place around his neck, they weren't always playing but he always had them close just in case he felt the need for them. He couold hear the pianist and the guitarist talking and though he couldnt make out what they were saying he was certain they weren't fighting, at least when he had passed by, and that was enough to keep him contented for the moment.
SleepingFollowing the other into the kitchen Noah simply moved to the counter and pushed himself up so he was sitting on the cleared space. Leaning forward slightly he let his elbow come to rest on his knee and kept his head propped up with his palm and just watched Selcia set to work, now sure he would just end up with the way. Though as the other began putting things back he couldnt help the light chuckle that passed his lips every now and then. He could just imagine Marcus' reaction when he realized his precious stash wasn't in its previous spot. The boy would likely flip. However as Selcia spoke up Noah couldnt help but furrow his brow slightly "Thats news to me".SleepingSleeping
sleeping And the night shall be filled with music, lonely
And the cares that infest the day a silence
Shall fold their tents like the Arabs insomniac
And as silently steal away. touching me
~Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
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Posted: Sat Jun 04, 2011 4:04 pm
Marcus D. Samuel -Silence-Different-Musician The darkness closes in on me, I surrender to it's sweet voice calling out to me, and let it take over me. On this bed I lay, losing everything
I can see my life passing me by SilenceMarcus flinched back from Spencer's words, that hurt awfully bad. He tried to hide the pain in his eyes, but he knew that he was failing. He didn't want to do this again, he didn't want to fight with her. He still didn't get a chance to apologize for last time, and now they were already on a different fight? What was happening to them? It wasn't like he hated the guitarist, she had her flaws but every did and he liked her a lot. So why where they always at each other's necks constantly?
He suddenly felt his eyes burn with hot tears and he blinked them away, hoping she hadn't seen them, and held out the bottom but he didn't wait for her to grab it before he let it fall to the floor. "There. Happy?" he asked quietly, turning on his heel he walked out of the room. "I just wanted to help. I know you might not like it, but we do care about you." he said, that was his best defense at this moment. And then he slipped out of the room, he heard Selcia and Noah in the kitchen. There was no way he was going to confront them so he walked quickly through the living room and towards the door hoping he could get past them. He suddenly didn't have the energy to talk anymore yelling. Was it all too much or just not enough
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare There's no where to hide, in the dark. There was a girl I knew once, she told me I was blessed with a great gift. I laughed, because I think I was blessed with a curse.
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Posted: Sat Jun 04, 2011 4:10 pm
 ◤ I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car I am super star and I don't care who you are.◥ This is my world all ravaged and torn,With a taste of your lips, I'm on a rideStruck down by Sickness, Famine and War.You're toxic, I'm slipping underThis is my Hope, radiant and glowing,With a taste of a poison paradiseSaved by an angel, my spirit and his birth.I'm addicted to you, don't you know that you're toxic?◣ I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car I am super star and I don't care who you are.◢ 【Selcia Evens】✘-Playful ✘-Happy ✘-Energetic ☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆
ZydrateSelcia nodded before his began to write a list. "Lets see, we need noodles, tomato sauce, garlic, garlic powder, Two loafs of French bread chicken breast, and whipped cream." he stated humming happily before adding Parmesan to the list." Anything else?" he asked looking to the other at the pen he had been writing with tap on his lower lip his thoughts while not entirely on dinner where still there. "How about a head of lettuce tomatoes and some oregano." he stated adding those to the list.
☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆ Obviously objectionable Content:
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Posted: Sat Jun 04, 2011 4:14 pm
Natalie E. Spencer I’ll never fail again... BrotherSpencer trembled, her anger falling again as Marcus looked like he was about to cry. She said nothing, biting down on her lip as she watched the bottle of the pills fall to the floor. She had hurt him. She didn’t’ want to hurt him, she wanted to tell him everything. But it was too difficult, they would never understand. His words cut like a hot knife through her. They did care. No. No, it couldn’t have been true. Spencer’s knees buckled, but she didn’t fall. She didn’t collapse like she wanted to do. She wanted to curl up and cry her eyes out. Why was this so difficult? Why did this all have to hurt so badly?
She sprinted out of the room, “Marcus!” Spencer cried out. She nearly bowled him over as she found him, her arms wrapping around him from behind, burying her head between his shoulder blades as she cried. “Don’t go. Don’t go.” She pleaded, her words jumpy and scared. She shook her head a bit, her body quivering as her arms tightened around his stomach. “Please. I don’t. I don’t want to be alone.” She whispered.
Her mind flashed to Selcia and Noah, who were probably close. She didn’t want to be seen like this. She didn’t want to be exposed so broken and needy. But what did it matter anymore? Noah knew already. And now Marcus. What was one more person knowing how she was broken? But then again… It could do a lot, she knew. The last thing she wanted was pity from the lot of them. Maybe she should et go, to hide back away and wait it out. But her arms wouldn’t let go, her arms kept fastened around him. She couldn’t even seem to raise her head from its spot on his back.
...I’ll keep you out of danger
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Posted: Sat Jun 04, 2011 4:30 pm
Marcus D. Samuel -Silence-Different-Musician The darkness closes in on me, I surrender to it's sweet voice calling out to me, and let it take over me. On this bed I lay, losing everything
I can see my life passing me by SilenceThe door was just a few feet away, he was close. And no one in the kitchen had noticed him, he was in the clear. But suddenly he heard his name called, no cried out and a pair of warm arms was suddenly around him as if they had been there all along. Marcus's first response was to freeze, but his body soon unstiffened and he blinked at Spencer's words. Was it really her talking? Or had she gotten possessed in the last couple minutes? Was she really crying? He stood there for another half second before his hands took her wrists and gentle freed himself from her grasp. He held her hands together while he turned to face her.
It was hard to believe that this was the girl that just yelled at him and almost put him to tears less then ten minutes ago. "Hey, are you crying?" he asked softly reaching over with his hands to wipe her tears away. "Don't cry. I won't go anywhere." he said, it broke his heart to see her so broken. He hadn't realized that he was still holding one of her hands in his but that didn't matter. "You aren't alone, why would you think that?" he asked and shook his head. She was so oblivious to things, how could she not realize that she was never alone? Had she always been so blind? Was it all too much or just not enough
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare There's no where to hide, in the dark. There was a girl I knew once, she told me I was blessed with a great gift. I laughed, because I think I was blessed with a curse.
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Posted: Sat Jun 04, 2011 4:41 pm
Natalie E. Spencer I’ll never fail again... BrotherSpencer felt herself break a bit more as he freed himself from her arms. He was leaving, he was going. She was a freak, he was going to go through that door, anyhow. But his warm hands stayed around hers. She wanted to cry into something, not just stand there slumped over, head down. But he didn’t want to be close to her. She couldn’t blame him. She felt his hands wipe her tears off of her cheeks, though they just kept falling. “Promise?” she asked, her brown eyes looking up at his. “Promise you won’t? Stay here. Please. I need you to stay here.” Spencer kept repeating herself, almost unconsciously. As if if she stopped saying that phrase, that he would actually leave her. “I am.” She whimpered. “I am alone.” She shook her head, fighting for control over her body. Her teas, the shaking, the lowered head. It was all so unlike her, and she wanted it to all go away. “Not physically. Not in body. I’m not. But. But I am. I’m alone. All alone.” She spoke in broken sentences, her head shaking. She wanted him to understand. Understand what she had told Noah before. That nobody understood. That they just didn’t get it. “Don’t leave.” She said again. “Please.”
Spencer sniffled. “No.” She said finally, responding to his first question. “I am not. No crying. I never cry.” She shook her head a bit, denying it. Maybe if she believed it, they would all believe it to. “My eyes. They just. They burn. Watering. Not crying. I never cry.”
...I’ll keep you out of danger
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Posted: Sat Jun 04, 2011 4:54 pm
Marcus D. Samuel -Silence-Different-Musician The darkness closes in on me, I surrender to it's sweet voice calling out to me, and let it take over me. On this bed I lay, losing everything
I can see my life passing me by Silence"I promise." Marcus said automatically, of course he wouldn't leave her. Not after this anyway. "I'll always be here. I promise." he spoke again, anything. He'd do anything for her at this point. He just didn't want to see her so broken ever again. He was going to deny it when she said that she was alone but held his tongue until she explained.
When she did he couldn't take it any longer and he let go of her hands and wrapped his arms around her pulling her into a hug. "I'm not going anywhere. So stop asking." he whispered once more, he thought for a moment. "I want to be there for you, alright? You have to let people in before you claim that your alone, silly." He couldn't help but smile when she said she wasn't crying. It was so like her to say it. "That's like saying you never laugh. Everybody cries." he told her, though what was he saying? He never cried. Or at least he tried not too. If he cried though, it surely wasn't in front of people. Was it all too much or just not enough
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare There's no where to hide, in the dark. There was a girl I knew once, she told me I was blessed with a great gift. I laughed, because I think I was blessed with a curse.
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Posted: Sat Jun 04, 2011 5:04 pm
Rain 𝔑𝔬𝔞𝔥
Guitars 𝔄.
tuesdays 𝔗𝔥𝔬𝔪𝔞𝔰 ◦♫ ♪ ◦♫ ♪ ◦♫ ♪ ♂ ♪ ♫◦ ♪ ♫◦ ♪ ♫◦ SleepingThe blonde just kept his spot on the counter and just listened as the other started working on the list, smiling at the other as he went to work thinking aloud. Though as the question went to if they needed anything else he paused for a moment in thought "Vanilla extract, cinnamin and pancake mix" he said calmly, another 'just add water' thing but he knew how to take plain-old pancakes and give them a little umph. The blonde only pulled himself from the counter when he noticed the other tapping the pen against his lips before moving to write more on the list. He took the opening and leaned in to place a light kiss on Selcia's lips just for the hell of it before flashing another smile.
SleepingThough that smile faded at the sound of a familiar females cry. That had always been something to pull him away from what he was doing, another of the band members being upset or hurt, though it was what had been cried. Spencer was crying for Marcus? Turning on his heal he poked his head out of the kitchen to see what was going on in the entry, unable to hide the slight suprise. Spencer crying on Marcus' shoulder and Marcus trying to cheer her up. Had hell frozen over? He shook that thought from his head as that smile returned to his face, glad to see the two finally getting somewhere. He just slipped back into the kitchen, a happy smile back on his face when he quickly returned to Selcia's side.
SleepingSleeping
sleeping And the night shall be filled with music, lonely
And the cares that infest the day a silence
Shall fold their tents like the Arabs insomniac
And as silently steal away. touching me
~Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
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Posted: Sat Jun 04, 2011 5:10 pm
◤ I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car I am super star and I don't care who you are.◥ This is my world all ravaged and torn,With a taste of your lips, I'm on a rideStruck down by Sickness, Famine and War.You're toxic, I'm slipping underThis is my Hope, radiant and glowing,With a taste of a poison paradiseSaved by an angel, my spirit and his birth.I'm addicted to you, don't you know that you're toxic?◣ I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car I am super star and I don't care who you are.◢ 【Selcia Evens】✘-Playful ✘-Happy ✘-Energetic ☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆
ZydrateAs the other spoke his own this those two where written on the list he blinked when a kiss was pressed to his lips before smiling, yup there was the reason for his favorite sweet thing, adding strawberries to the list he giggle slightly before blinking as Noah peered out it was at that moment he finally heard the crying. he let his gaze lock with the other his head moving to the side rather cutely as he asked a silent question no reason to mess up any moments that could be happening. However he was suddenly distracted as he placed the note pad onto the counter a mischievous smirk crossing his features as he leaned forward capturing the other in another kiss.
☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆☢★☢☆ Obviously objectionable Content:
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Posted: Sat Jun 04, 2011 5:18 pm
Natalie E. Spencer I’ll never fail again... Brother“Good.” She said, burying herself into his hug. “You better not.” She set her head on his chest, closing her eyes as she forced her body into her wishes. No more crying, no more quivering, no more show able brokenness. She knew that hugging him was probably a show of brokenness, as well, but he wouldn’t push him away. No. She couldn’t, she needed a hug. Spencer shook her head a bit. “But I can’t. Then I’ll be like this. I can’t be like this. I have to be strong. Like a tower. I won’t have respect.” Her voice was close to a whisper. That was one of her fears. Being pitied, being babied, having no respect from those around her. There was a source in the back of her mind somewhere, she knew. But she had no clue of what. Why she was so afraid to be broken around people. Was it because of her brother? Who knew? She just couldn’t let it happen, that was for sure.
Spencer shook her head. “Not everyone laughs.” She denied quietly. She felt her skin crawl a bit, like someone was watching her. She pushed away from Marcus, taking a few steps back. She looked away, unable to look at him. Part of her wanted to rewind the past few moments, but another part wanted to relish this forever. “The mute can’t laugh. And I can’t cry.” She said finally, shaking her head.
She closed her eyes for a moment. “I need to be alone.” She said finally. “I’m sorry. Some other time. Some other time we’ll do something. Something normal. Fun.” Her eyes opened and she turned them finally towards him. “I’ll make sure not to ruin things again. Promise.” She said softly. Something jumped through her body, a sort of electricity that moved her forwards. Her brain must have been blinking while her body took over. Natalie gave Marcus’s cheek a quick kiss. Her face turned cherry red when it was over, though. And she quickly turned, sprinting into her room, shutting the door and making sure she locked it behind her. The she curled up on the blanket that was still on her floor. “What did I do?” She asked the empty room, pulling part of the blanket to her face.
...I’ll keep you out of danger ((Spencer is so emotionally unstable... Taha.))
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Posted: Sat Jun 04, 2011 5:36 pm
Marcus D. Samuel -Silence-Different-Musician The darkness closes in on me, I surrender to it's sweet voice calling out to me, and let it take over me. On this bed I lay, losing everything
I can see my life passing me by SilenceMarcus only shook her head at her words. That wasn't a way to live. Even the strongest fell down sometimes. Showing weakness wasn't losing respect or being pitied. If anything it was the opposite. You gained respect, and lost pity. You became stronger by showing your weakness. Didn't she understand that?
But then she broke away from his arms. He felt suddenly empty without her in his arms. What a strange emotion. He didn't understand it. But he did know that he wanted her back in his arms. Instead he just stood there his arms empty. If the mute can't laugh they couldn't cry either. It seemed like she didn't get that as well. There was so much she was missing.
When she said she needed to be alone, he felt a sense of hurt come over him. He understood though, she was embarrassed to show such broken emotions to anyone. And he was up for mattress sliding any day really. So there really wasn't a reason to rush things.
What really blew him back though was when she stepped forward and kissed his cheek. He was suddenly frozen to the floor, so many emotions coming over him at once. The first was shock and then a sudden warmth washed over him and he reached up to touch where she had kissed him and a soft blush appeared on his cheeks. He felt an urge to follow her to her room but he remembered what she had said about being alone so instead he stood where he was. Unsure of anything at that moment. Was it all too much or just not enough
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare There's no where to hide, in the dark. There was a girl I knew once, she told me I was blessed with a great gift. I laughed, because I think I was blessed with a curse.
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Posted: Sat Jun 04, 2011 5:44 pm
Rain 𝔑𝔬𝔞𝔥
Guitars 𝔄.
tuesdays 𝔗𝔥𝔬𝔪𝔞𝔰 ◦♫ ♪ ◦♫ ♪ ◦♫ ♪ ♂ ♪ ♫◦ ♪ ♫◦ ♪ ♫◦ SleepingUpon seeinf Selcia tilt his head to the side Noah couldnt help but internally gush, it was rather cute. He thought on how to word it in a way that didnt give too much away, but really there wasnt much that the crying hadnt given away. Still he knew spencer would prefer to keep that strong outter shell in tact for some for now. With a smile he just sniffed, pretended to wipe a tear from his eyes before wrapping his arms around the others neck "Our babies are growing up" he joked slightly keeping his voice down, deciding to keep with the little family roles for now. However as the others lips captured his, a light happy humm built in the back of his throat, letting one of his hands slide to move through the others hair.
Sleeping.
SleepingSleeping
sleeping And the night shall be filled with music, lonely
And the cares that infest the day a silence
Shall fold their tents like the Arabs insomniac
And as silently steal away. touching me
~Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
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