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 Posted: Wed Aug 10, 2005 1:58 pm
Yay for Carcer biggrin !!!!! d00hd, my AIM won't work D:! This saddens me gonk
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Posted: Wed Aug 10, 2005 2:45 pm
A repetitive bad day! ^^ and still in a bad mood. WhOO! *runs away*
Going to Khols. I'm gunna paint our bathroom after my bro leaves, and at Khold we saw a bathroom design I liked so we're gunna get stuff for it...
I sent out a letter. Whee. and thats my day if I don't talk about camp.
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Posted: Thu Aug 11, 2005 4:06 am
x.x I haven't slept save for around 40mins... blegh, it's 7 in the morning *groggy*.
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Posted: Thu Aug 11, 2005 9:13 am
Meh.
I think I need to sleep over someone''s house tonight...
Oh yeah, anyone who has my cell number, don''t bother calling, it''s been cut off. =/
I think I''ll still be online... I dunno.
Well, regardless, I love you guys. <333
If you don''t see me on too much it''s probably because I''m somewhere else.
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Posted: Fri Aug 12, 2005 8:26 am
Birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday birthday!!!
I'm an adult beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeotch! MUahahahahah!!! heart
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Posted: Fri Aug 12, 2005 11:27 am
i'm sorry about ur kitty touma. i know what it's like to have ur pet put to sleep. my dog was put to sleep when i was 11.
i hope u get ur supplies maki! that would be so sad if u went into the hospital. [sniffle.] i'd write to ya in the hospital, but i dunno the address xd
awww, tatsuha-san. don't be sad. [hates self for not being online so i could talk to u.]
happy belated b-day carcer!!! [glomp/tackle/every huggle thingy that ppl say out there!]
as for me, my computer has been taken out of my room ((to be fixed)) so i'm on me mum's and she don't have aim on there. i'll get my computer back soon though cuz i'm like 98% done with my hw. i found out i go back on the 31st like every year ((curse them for saying it'll be earlier this year))
on wed it was my mom's b-day so we went out for awhile. first to the 49ers training camp ((i'm actually thinkig of watching football this year...)) and then we headed out towards santa cruz cuz we wanted to go to the boardwalk, but i said we should spend the night.
because i live here and our economy is so crappy and everything is so expensive in the bay area, my mom has a problem with spending anything. she's a**l like that. but we managed to kidnap her and off we went. we didn't go to the boardwalk, but we had a wonderful and really relaxing spur-of-the-moment time at our hotel ((which was right on the beach and had a warm pool and 150 degree spa! xd ))
now i'm just waiting to go out to lunch with my friend before she moves to arizona for college. ew... >.< it's so far away! crying
oh yeah! u guys ((who i talk to on aim)) i'm watching espn cuz they're doing their 50 states thing and it has yet to come to nj, ny, and florida. i think they may have done ny already though... but i'm waiting to see ur guys'. they already did mine.
see ya! ^.'
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Posted: Fri Aug 12, 2005 3:25 pm
*flyingglomptackles Carcer and Hoshi-chan*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CARCER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Awww, Hoshi-chan, I'll make them fix your computer faster so we can talk on AIM D:!!!
woah, what're they doing doing on ESPN with the 50 states :O?! I probably missed it crying ...
My Grandmother somehow got the muffler on her car to be dragging on the ground... AW MAN, NO DRIVING FOR TEH TOHMA UNTILL IT'S FIXED gonk !!
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Posted: Fri Aug 12, 2005 7:05 pm
Omigawsh, I -finally- got my homework done, just now! gonk
I had too much fun with the cow part. o.o Found the funniest picture of a cow with his tounge sticking out. Made me laugh. It's now in my randosig somewhere.
Er. School isn't so bad. >.> Well, yet..
As a matter of fact, I'm sort of, kind of, almost, maybe, perhaps stalking some random boy from my orchestra class. =0;; Well, I stalk him with my eyes.. ninja Yesh, that's possible. D< Im'ma gonna try and be non-quiet at school for once and try to make friends with him. :3
Fwee~ I like his hair. X3;; That's what caught my eye in the first place. I have like, an obsession with other people's hair. I'll walk around the hallways and get all excited because of how some random kid's hair is. Dorky fetish, perhaps? o.o;
Wheeee~ Got Hoshiko's letter not too long ago! heart
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Posted: Sat Aug 13, 2005 9:04 am
Well, first off, I wanna wish Carcer a happy belated Birthday!
I didn't get to say it yesterday 'cause I was at a friend's house, but I did remember!
My cell was also re-activated... so yeah.
I feel like crap though. =/
I hope you get your computer back soon, Hoshiko! I miss talking to you! ;_;
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Posted: Sat Aug 13, 2005 8:18 pm
My computer crashed D:! I lost everything *seppuku*. It's not the pictures and stoof that bugs me...it's my Mizer ficcy that tears me apart D:! I can only hope that I can somehow find someone I sent it to and get it sent back u_u...
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Posted: Sun Aug 14, 2005 3:38 pm
@ touma: no, the espn thing is still going on. and if u watch it today, they're doing kansas!!! xd i snorted my coffee when i heard them say that yesterday. my mom looked at me and went, "r u ok?" and i was like "TOUMA!!!!" oooh....my mom and my cat gave me the weirdest look...
@ suppi-chan: YAY1 u got my letter! i am awaiting urs... [glares at the mail and the calander.] CURSE U FOR BEING SUNDAY!
@ maki: i miss talking to u too! crying i never did get ur letter. did u ever get mine?
well last night i had the worst night/morning of my life. i had a horrible headache like from before ((that made me have pills and tests and horrible days)) that kept me up untill like 4 in the morning. i was so tired, so i didn't play zelda like i wanted to, nor did i watch a movie. i read, but kept haivng to move cuz i was so uncomfortable.
at one point i ran to the bathroom and made it in time to hurl, but that was when the depression hit. then i felt like i was on some frickin' acid trip and texted my ani and said s**t like, "u don't love me anymore" and then i really did it...
i texted yuki and was pissed. i heard from her something that really struck me in the chest and i swear to God, i made my tongue bleed from biting it so much to not cry in the car. she made me promise not to tell anyone, so i won't say it on here. all i can say is...i'm not going to call her yuki anymore and i've really lost all feelings towards her.
i don't think i really like anyone anymore. since last night my head and my eyes have hurt so much. i can't believe i can see.
CURSE U HW! [returns to it.]
oh, don't think my life has been so bad recently. it hasn't! i got my second letter from tatsuha-san yesterday ((if i knew where my cell went to, i'd call u right now)) and i laughed so hard i almost died yesterday ((seriously, i was chocking)) and in a few days there's gonna be a huge party!!! ^^
anyways. [/********>
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Posted: Sun Aug 14, 2005 3:57 pm
iMtohmaAndiLikehats My computer crashed D:! I lost everything *seppuku*. It's not the pictures and stoof that bugs me...it's my Mizer ficcy that tears me apart D:! I can only hope that I can somehow find someone I sent it to and get it sent back u_u... If you take it to best buy they should be able to extract everything with no problem. 3nodding *huggles Hoshiko*
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Posted: Sun Aug 14, 2005 5:31 pm
Awww, Hoshi-chan D:! *snuggles* I got your short letter biggrin ! Heehee ^.^!
Kansas....blagh ><....
Nene, I'm going on an ENJOYABLE vacation out to montauck point in about a week :3!!!!!!!! *jooooy*
Nyaaaa, I managed to sleep untill 5 PM O_o... I gotta start getting up earlier so I can be used to it for skool X_X. Blaaaaaagh.
Nyaaaaaaaaaa~! Tohma is in loOoOoOoOoOove 4laugh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ((Hoshi-chan knows EXACTLY what I'm talking about :3!))
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Posted: Sun Aug 14, 2005 8:43 pm
omgIwasgonebutnowi'mbacksoeveryonecanstoppanicingcalmdownandREJOICE!
cool
I was at my Grandma's again. This time I didn't go to the beach at all. Didn't feel like it. Stayed with my grandma, played a peg game, watched TV, played video games.
That's the life.
Guess what? I didn't get to go to Olive Garden like I was promised!
I TOLD YOU! mad
I think I left my Lact-aid pills at my Grandmas... I mean to leave SOME but not the whole box! x.x
I wanted to Call Maki all weekend... but I forgot, and the other night I fell asleep about 8:30 anyways.
My uncle gave me a blanket with Black Labs on them! ^^
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Posted: Sun Aug 14, 2005 10:31 pm
T______T
Hoshiko, I hope you feel better. I mean, I don't know exactly what happened, but I can tell it really upset you. I hope you can get your computer back soon so we can talk. I got your letter and I sent mine out. It probably got lost in the mail. >< I'll send another one with one of my senior pics! ^_^ I still have to send those out to people. gonk
Ya know, I was alone in the house all day. I felt kinda happy... I think. I dunno anymore. I was doing great for a while and then everything just ******** died. I feel really depressed. I don't like talking on the phone and when people call I sound so boring and out of it that people make excuses to hang up and do other things. Well, ya know, I'm sorry and all... but I've just been through some s**t that, again, is going to be hard to get over. ._.
I didn't wanna go to see my aunt today. I didn't wanna talk to my Godfather on Saturday, and I just don't even wanna be in this house. I don't wanna be with my mom. I don't wanna be in an enclosed space with her. Probably why I didn't go to my aunt's. I wanted to... but all night I thought about being in a car with her and it made me wanna cry, dammit. But then again, I don't want to hear s**t from my family. I don't want to keep taking the blame. I don't wanna keep having the finger pointed at me when my mom is the one who needs to be locked away and not allowed to return to society.
And I think the only people who understand this are select friends, my brother, and my Godmother.
I just want to get out of this state of mind. I hate it. I keep trying my hardest to think of the good things coming up and to focus on other things. I listened to music all by myself today in the house after cooking breakfast. Normally, this simple pleasure would make me happy, but it didn't. I feel like a hypocrite 'cause I always say depression, in my opinion, is a state of mind. And even though I believe this and I say that thinking about what makes you sad is what keeps you sad, I'm still doing it.
I guess I need to learn to practice what I preach. =/
By the way, to people I talk to online, I'm really sorry for being so boring and out of it. Same with the phone. gonk
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