19th February 2004
Last night was both good and bad...Good was Gaia's first anniversary Ball, held in Gambino's Mansion. The Fa'e children and guardians had a table, Anya! kindly sent over food and drinks at one point, and everyone seemed to have fun. Sati and me could not stay long last night, but whilst we were there we had a good time;
The bad happened a few hours after we came home. I had not long put Sati down when she started to cry, a pained wailing that was very loud. Her cheeks were flushed red, and she didn't stop crying when I picked her up. Thinking that she must surely be teething, I ran a flannel under some cold water and let her suck on it. This seemed to soothe her, and I sat up with her in my arms into the wee small hours of the morning until the pain receded somewhat and she drifted off to sleep. I hope that her teeth come through soon...I dont like to think of my charge being in pain, and many more sleepless nights wont help me any. When morning came properly Sati seemed to have forgotten the nights events, and even seemed cheerful, trying to grab my hat again whilst I fed her breakfast. We went out for a little shopping, and I remembered to get a picture of some of the people at the Fa'e table developed;
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Well the Ball was still continuing, and guardians were there with their Fa'e so I decided to take Sati again, in the hopes that she would meet more Fa'e. She briefly met Kia, and caught up with Silver again...who Sati seems to like very much already - then again she could just think he is a rather lively plushie. Her power manifested itself a few more times, she vanished her teething ring and her sippy cup before we left. Her growng teeth dont seem to be bothering her at the moment, but I will make sure to give her a cold flannel to suck on before I lay her down for bed.
19th February 2004
Scribbled this last entry for the day in hurriedly before I headed out to the Barton shops and the Fa'e HQ. I left Sati sleeping soundly in her moses basket...you may think that irresponsible but Phaylia, my faithful lupine Anio, is guarding her, and I know Phaylia won't let me down. I kissed Sati gently on the cheek before I left, her breathing was even, and her cheeks were only a little warm. I'm hoping for a decent nights sleep tonight....well I best put pen down and go before Sati does wake and miss me. I will hopefully be back before that happens....
20th February 2004
I'm sitting writing this entry on my futon, Sati asleep in her basket by my feet. I watch her sleeping, and I am scared of her.....I am scared of what she may become. Let me explain...I came back from the shops empty handed, nothing really caught my eye and it had become late. I gave Sati a cold flannel to suck before she went to sleep, and then after doing some tidying around the house I too turned in....after an hour or so of tossing and turning I slipped into a deep sleep...and I dreamt;
Walking through a field of gently swaying long grass, I find the scenery to be so familiar...and it hits my dream self - this was where I witnessed Kali's trial...the place where her spirit was torn from her and sent into my Sati. A little concerned about what I might witness here this visit, I walked along slower then before, the gentle breeze tugging at my hair. I came across a stream, and stopped, for kneeling in front of it was Shiva himself. Quietly I approached him, but as before my presence was not known to him, and I was able to watch him unnoticed. He seemed to be looking intently into the water's depths, I peered over his shoulder, almostly falling into the water in surprise. In the rippling water an image was shown...it was my bed room..I could see my sleeping form, and Sati in her basket, also asleep. Shiva touched the water where Sati was shown, and a glow enveloped her little body...Sati twitched, her limbs flailing, she seemed in pain, and I cried out for Shiva to stop. As I watched Sati grew still again, returning to a peaceful state. I whispered a thanks to Shiva, at which he turned and looked straight at me, sensing me for the first time.
'I will not cause Kali harm..not whilst she dwells inside the body of an innocent...'
he spoke to me solemnly.
'I was merely checking that the spell to seal in her true soul and memories was still intact....her fellow Fa'e have un disciplined magicks that may affect its harmonics. All is well however and it remains firm.'
Shiva regarded me for a long moment
'You are doing well as her guardian...but remember as she grows, so do her powers...and she must be guided in the right direction - She has the potential to be either a force for good during her short existence..or the potential to be a true force of evil...a destructor of worlds...you must teach her..........'
he stated
Before Shiva could finish I felt my dream self tumbling away, leaving behind the stream and fields, pulled back to my body by the wails of Sati.
Once I had calmed her enough for her to drift back off to sleep, I picked up my diary, and that is where I remained, jotting down the dream as dawn broke and the sun began to filter into my room. And I wonder - am I up to this task? I love Sati....but when Shiva told me that it was only my guidance that would prevent Sati from growing into something that has the potential to yield so much destructive power...a little apprehensive would be an understatement of how I feel. But...I must not fail...she is my charge for a reason...I shall not falter...
Sayuri places the pen and book down on the futon, before going over to the wooden shutters that cover the window, opening them with the familiar 'rattle clatter' sound they always make. The light streams into her room, onto the basket and Sati stirs, moving about, gurgling softly. The sound twinges at Sayuri's heartstrings, she goes over to Sati, bending down and gathering her into her arms. Sati looks up at Sayuri, patting her hands on her guardians face, Sayuri traces Sati's mark for infinity on her forehead, and smiles. She knows that come what may, she cant abandon this little child, she will be with her till the end.... 
