I'M A ******** DUDE GOD DAMN IT!
You can start sending me hate mail now.
There was no other way for me to say this. I couldn't put it out in a nicer way other then that, even if I did I would end up sounding cornier then I already am or going to be. Before I can fully start my quest I must get rid of all my skeletons out of the closet so I can feel as I can trully in my eyes see that I can or deserve of a Halo.
Yes, I am a guy. For the most part i'm not even Filipino i'm Black and Black Foot Native American.
YES ANOTHER BLACK PERSON ON THE SITE!! Some may wonder alot of other things yes I will get to it in the next couple of post.
How do you know so much about Filipino culture and know how to speak Tagalog and stuff. What about those pictures of females you've seen in my journal.
I know three languages. English, Spanish, and Tagalog. I grew up around Filipinos and Mexcian families. Its not hard to pick up a few things from some of your friends such as, watch what they do eat what they eat, as well as visting their countries.
As for the pictures of girls, as hard for it is to see I am unoffical ladies man. As people have told me I'm "just adorable" as strange as that is even for me. People send me pictures of themselves. (Too end all crap no I am not some over weight chubby black dude that masterbates to hentai/Porn since he can't get a woman. I'm pretty popular outside the internet.) O.O
Why the coming out all of a sudden?
For the most part I haven't really been keeping it a secret. I have even started I was dude, it was people who just assumed I was. I just got tired of it and just went along with it for the most part. It just snowed balled more and more till I just said ******** it. About everyone in my guild knows, and thats not saying much of a bunch of 100 something people and among other people.
First questions come to mind......are you GAY? Are you a f*****t, HOMO, QUEER?
I would just like to say and state this for the record.
HELL ******** NO, FAR FROM IT.
Why the female avatar and set up how come you just didn't tell anyone from the start?
I think i've told everyone this story about my story with the Angelic Scarf and how it represented some parts of the negative parts of myself. I changed my avatar to a female avatar to get rid of what I had become to start fresh.
Okay, so let me get this straight you don't like men you don't have crush or something on me?
GOD DAMN IT. I DON'T ******** LIKE MEN!!
But you hugged and kissed me in Gaia Towns?! I gave you items.
LOL, not really.
rofl Take a look at who I assoicate myself with
females. Female avatars and the sort. The only type of thing I due is hug men at times. Thats mainly do to the fact that you can hug a man, your dad, your bestfriend, etc. A Kiss on the other hand is something else. I don't kiss men.
EVER! As for the items part, you did all on your own. I did not use some sexual power or sexualality to persauded you to donate your items to me. You did it because you either liked me as friend for my personality or thought it would be benifitical to my cause at the time. I don't have a good enough explaination for it other then that.
But I liked you or had a crush on you?
s**t I don't love anybody but myself on here, and I care deeply about a few on this site, ones that have gotten to know me or people that i've known since I came on. Another thing I would like to point out is this:
I had thought about telling
EVERYBODY along time ago to just get it over with. I had made a thread talking about this sitiuation to my guild mates. And acouple of them had some good advice as well as silly crap. This one comes to mind:
Shin Oni
Digi_Tek
No one told em to fall in love with pixels
though when you told me you were a guy, I didn't care. Cause i've seen many do the whole "have a girl avy and actually be a guy in real life" thing. It's done all the damn time in MMORPGs. So if people hate you for it, ti's more their fault for thinking something could happen between you guys. or something...
all I say is true friends won't care. They'll laugh, probably say they kinda thought you were a guy, then move on. Plus it just shows how much more this site caters to kids than actual smart ones.
This also reminds me of a guy I knew back on the G4 forums (before G4 went crappy.) was a guy but...always had Jessica Alba avys. I thought he was a girl till he showed a pic of himself. I didn't care and he was a cool guy (plus he lived in MD so it was even more cool.)
Icege
Ma-Ajmala
On to a more serious note
Now that i've somewhat completed my quest so to speak (The Headphones one). I've had this on my mind for awhile. As you know i'm a dude, but outside the guild everyone else thinks i'm a
SHE. I was wondering and asking you guys do you think I should keep this secret to myself or let it die along with me.
I don't know why its been bothering me as much. I've been doing this about 2 year so far, and sometimes it gets to me and it doesn't. I have little boys come to ask and kiss me and towns and try to flirt with me and my normal reaction is "
I'm gay, I like girls."
I guess what i'm thinking about is how it will effect my popularity or the effect it will have on people mentally. I don't know if you know, but i've got some people out there that have crushes on me. And to bring this out would question their sexuality as well as to mine, with the ever impending "
YOUR ******** GAY AND MESSED UP" Its not the words that would seem to hurt me the most but peoples reactions and possble lose of friends I would have. Here they trusted me and now they're seeing that all this is a lie to them.
I would like to get a few peoples ideas on this. Before I think about making any of this formal to everyone outside the guild.
Transvestite =/= homosexual
I don't see why it bothers you. I'm a sonuvabitch and my avatar is just cute and cuddly.
If they're really friends, they'll feel stupid, but it'll be funny. Unless you've actually played along and said that you were a female. Then you're ******** and just need to deal with the consequences.
I think you should bring back Musashi D:<
No, I like having a female avatar, also I think I have 1 more gender change and its not worth it since I have a male avatar that does the job for me.
IF YOU HAVE ANYMORE QUESTIONS PM OR CONFRONT ME. FRANKLY I AM TOO DAMN OLD RIGHT NOW TO GIVE A ********. I AM 21 YEARS OLD, AND HAVE BEEN A CHILD OF THE INTERNET FOR 12-13 YEARS OF MY LIFE. AS I TOLD PEOPLE BEFORE THIS IS ALL BUT KID s**t TOO ME. I'VE BEEN THROUGH THIS ALL BEFORE LONG ALO AND ITS NOTHING NEW TO ME( Besides the female thing lol).
